Emotions. We all experience a variety of feelings each and every day. Emotions ranging anywhere between joy and deep lament (Lamenting being an expression of deep sorrow, mourning or grief). We feel pain when we lose someone dear to us. We feel frustration or rage when things backfire on us. There is confusion when we don’t understand, the unknown. We experience joy when something good happens.
I am a huge fan of the Psalms. I find myself continually digging into this beautiful book of poetry because it is so raw in expressing both the joyous and painful moments in life. The pages of Psalms are filled with various emotions: anger, confusion, joy, pain, humility, bewilderment, contentment -all directed toward the Creator. God created us with emotions, they aren’t a foreign concept to him. The writers of the Psalms are honest. Rather than ignoring what society has labeled as being “negative” emotions, the writers worked through their feelings, continuing to bring them forwards.
I wrote the song, Walking Away several years ago after a breakup. A breakup in which I had no answers. I guess this is my one Taylor Swift song. Every musician needs at least one of those right? I was left in utter confusion in that particular situation in my life with the realization that I wouldn’t ever have answers as to why it hadn’t worked out. It was shortly after this I packed my bags with every penny I managed to save (being a college student) and backpacked around Europe. Perhaps this was my way of running away. My button to restart. My form of processing. I was very grateful for the timing of this trip. I really had no idea what would be around the bend. Adventure here we come! And along the way I did learn many valuable lessons, one of them being that I would be okay. In order to be okay though, I had to do a little lamenting of my own. There were days I had to force myself to eat, nights I don’t think I slept a wink, and times I didn’t think any more tears could physically come out of me. I am enough. I am enough. I am enough.
“…prayers of complaint can still be prayers of faith. They represent the last refusal to let go of the God who may seem to be absent or worse –uncaring. If this is true, then lament expresses one of the most intimate moments of faith –not a denial of it. It is supreme honesty before a God whom my faith tells me I can trust. He encourages me to bring everything as an act of worship, my disappointment frustration, and even my hate.” ~Michael Card
We do not need to be taught how to lament. We need the simple assurance that we CAN lament. Lamenting is NOT forbidden. There are times our Creator actually blesses those who do so!
“God blesses those who are hungry now, for you will be satisfied. God bless you who weep now, for the time will come when you laugh with joy.” Luke 6:21
And here it is! Take a listen & give it a share if you like!
WHAT SHE DID TO YOU/ CAN’T YOU SEE?/ YOU’RE DOING TO ME/ YOU KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE TO BE BROKEN/ YET YOU’RE STILL WALKING AWAY/ WALKING AWAY…/ I TRY AND ERASE WHAT YOU SAID/ I TRY AND FORGET WHAT WE DID TOGETHER/ IT MAKES NO SENSE TO ME/ HERE I AM IN CONFUSION/ FROM WHAT YOU DROPPED ON ME/ NEXT TIME YOU BETTER THINK/ BEFORE YOU LEAD SOMEONE’S HEART ASTRAY/ YOU’RE STILL WALKING AWAY/ WALKING AWAY…
Lyrics © Jessica Rachelle 2014